Rock On!

fb_img_1481326146964 no matter what life throws at you…Rock On

Music is the best form of encouragement… Rock On

Lose your soul in music…Rock On.



this was a day when i was feeling the 70’s… this symbol means a lot to me growing up in that of war and peace… sad to say i was a war baby… didn’t know it of course was a bit to young.. i hurt to see the troops that return from Iraq, and the other place we send our own to defend others, not sure if i should cheer them on or pray fro their safety, so i do both…

“You can’t expect FORGIVENESS Unless you’re willing to GIVE it yourself”

JuSt My ThOuGhTs

 This morning I asked my friends on FaceBook to give me a title or subject for my next blog. well little did I realize the first and only response was on a subject I struggle with everyday of my life… Forgiveness.

the title of this blog is what someone I knew back in 1983 left as a suggestion … mind you know i have not seen this classmate in over 20 years, we have only chatted a few times since finding one another thorough the grapevine of FaceBook… for me this was almost like a knock on my door and it was Him above at my door.

now I have always had God issues, but last night after reading a friends testimony at the end of his  words there was this sentence,

Dear God, I am a sinner and need forgiveness. I believe that Jesus Christ shed His precious blood…

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My Garden


In a world that is dying at our own hands, bringing  life to this world with plants give me a sense of pride, I can breath, I am happy, its the one place I am at peace with myself the most. its like everything disappears, and all i hear is the sound of the birds, or the wind rustling through the leaves of the trees.. its the calm through the madness in my mind, and soul right now is caught between good and bad.


 I have these Guardians of my Garden they care for my Garden when  i am not out there, little trinkets both mom and i added to make us smile. simple things really, but special to us in our own way, sanctuary I guess is what my Garden is to me… all it needs is a few Fairies to make things more exciting



clipping, potting, and watering my Garden, the green is so vibrant, the flowers just beginning to bloom, Spring is so exciting, and all that it brings with a little bit of love  and a whole lot of sun, anyone can have a little piece of Heaven here on Earth

Dreams and Reality

ImageWhen I seen this photo today, it made me really think, is been on my mind for hours.. Dreams.. what are they? why do we have them? why do they not come true when its all we wish for? the Reality is.. thats all they really are.. if they come true its because we make them come true, by forcing the dream to come true either by working hard  or making someone else provide in helping that dream come true . When we Dream while we sleep, sometimes horrible dreams, sometimes filled wish such fantasy.. the reality of dreaming when a sleep is its what we hold as a memories we have distorted for the better or worse…so in fact one way or another they are as real as you and I .


our Dreams held with in out unconscious is much like a filing cabinet holding information we might have forgotten about or wish to forget… and something during  the day triggers a memory and when were in a deep state of sleep, that memory comes to us played out like a live show in a Broadway show… sometimes like were locked in a dark room forced to re-live such horrid times… i believe its why we have so many insomniacs, they rather stay awake for days then to face the fear. i know sometimes i feel i am trapped in my dream, cant even force myself awake… no one around to help… its terrifying




This barn is located in Santa Rosa, Ca.. where i reside at the time being.. i have always wanted to take photos of this Barn, yes cause of its shape, and what i found was an eerie.Image

As I moved closer it was like I pull I could feel I just had to get closer… started to see its woreImage

colors fading with time, even the yellow graffiti seem to be faded.

the smell of age swam it the cool of the air that day, a stale wet odor Image

taking a peep in the only open way i immediately got chicken skin took two photos and moved away with a shiver, Quickly taking a seat to catch my breath… a huge tangled tree almost feels as if to catch meImageImage

an experience i will not do again alone anytime soon.


Update: in 2018 this Round Barn Burned down in the Fires that swept that area.. it was one of many structures and homes that were lost in the fires… it was one of the most devastating times I ever endured…